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PayPal update + and emo rant you can ignore

Tue May 12, 2009, 12:10 AM
  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: Crossfade- Cold
  • Reading: My friend's journals
  • Playing: my old N64 games
  • Eating: Gum
  • Drinking: water
Yep. I finally grew a pair and got a Paypal account that I am currently setting up. I cant finally get off my ass about charging for commissions. yay. I'm thinking of kicking off the occasion with a sale, just to try and get the flow going. I'm kinda nervous about messing my account up, just cause that tends to be my luck with these kinda things, and about the thought that has been plaguing my mind about this: "I rarely get free requests... what makes me think that I'm going to get more work now that I am actually charging" >.>;; I donno. I guess I'll see how it goes.
So this is hopefully what my summer will consist of, trying to refatten my wallet with a mix of commissions and working retail or some such job.

[enter the emo rant]

Yeah... Refattening my wallet to pay for next semester's books. *sighs* I really screwed up royally this time. I'm in for another semester of school and I feel fucking horrible about it. My dad already pulled himself out of retirement to be able to afford this. I was expecting a lecture from them about how I should have tried harder, that they know I could do better than this, you're on the internet too much, etc etc... but no.. I got something else. Come move-out day they just sighed at me and started talking to me about how I should look into getting rehired at my old retail jobs for the summer. They gave up. It's as if they expected that I would trip at the finish line and not graduate on time. And I can't help but fall into a state of self loathing, which is only fueled by my mother pointing out my "lazy habits" and how I have gained weight over the winter. Meanwhile on Facebook, the majority of my highschool friends are showing off their graduation pics, and I really am proud of them, but also can help but feel like that shoulda been me too. ugh. And yeah, I know I'm just whining (which ironically I hate and can't stand) but I guess I'm just venting how disgusted I am with myself lately and how much it can hurt when you realize that your parents lost faith in you. So if i go post any pics on here, don't be surprised if its more venting depresso shit. Sorry for the inconvenience everyone that is still watching me and reading this T.T

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  • Current Residence: NC, USA
  • Interests: The underdogs and the overlooked, anime, art, fantasy
  • Favourite movie: too many to list...
  • Favourite band or musician: Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Ozzy, Anjie Aparo, Linkin Park...more
  • Favourite genre of music: Heavy Metal / Rock (something with solid lyrics and a great guitar solo)
  • Favourite artist: Franz Marc, Norman Rockwell, Jean-Baptiste Oudry, Dali(will fill more)
  • Favourite style of art: hybrid of realistic/manga-esque
  • Favourite game: Zelda OOT, Spyro,Tenchu: Wrath of Heaven, Suikoden 1 + 2
  • Personal Quote: "When life hands you lemons, make lemonade then with a sarcastic smile ask for seconds" ~m
  • Tools of the Trade: mostly ink and colored pencil, graphite, and sometimes I'll make it CG

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thnx a lot fur the watch!

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I got my rock moves and I don't need you
And guess what, I'm havin' more fun
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you'r very welcome!
Happy late Birthday day, tried to call but I guess you were busy with finals like me.
wb to dA...long time no see

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Heya. It's Vornwrath. I am watchin you now

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A cornered fox is more dangerous than a jackal!
Thanks for the watch^^!

I hope to see you around with more work!
Thanks for the :+fav:! :glomp:

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no problem, I thought it was funny as hell. keep up the great work :3
Aww, thanks! :hug: I hope I'll be able to!

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