Yep. I finally grew a pair and got a Paypal account that I am currently setting up. I cant finally get off my ass about charging for commissions. yay. I'm thinking of kicking off the occasion with a sale, just to try and get the flow going. I'm kinda nervous about messing my account up, just cause that tends to be my luck with these kinda things, and about the thought that has been plaguing my mind about this: "I rarely get free requests... what makes me think that I'm going to get more work now that I am actually charging" >.>;; I donno. I guess I'll see how it goes.
So this is hopefully what my summer will consist of, trying to refatten my wallet with a mix of commissions and working retail or some such job.

[enter the emo rant]

Yeah... Refattening my wallet to pay for next semester's books. *sighs* I really screwed up royally this time. I'm in for another semester of school and I feel fucking horrible about it. My dad already pulled himself out of retirement to be able to afford this. I was expecting a lecture from them about how I should have tried harder, that they know I could do better than this, you're on the internet too much, etc etc... but no.. I got something else. Come move-out day they just sighed at me and started talking to me about how I should look into getting rehired at my old retail jobs for the summer. They gave up. It's as if they expected that I would trip at the finish line and not graduate on time. And I can't help but fall into a state of self loathing, which is only fueled by my mother pointing out my "lazy habits" and how I have gained weight over the winter. Meanwhile on Facebook, the majority of my highschool friends are showing off their graduation pics, and I really am proud of them, but also can help but feel like that shoulda been me too. ugh. And yeah, I know I'm just whining (which ironically I hate and can't stand) but I guess I'm just venting how disgusted I am with myself lately and how much it can hurt when you realize that your parents lost faith in you. So if i go post any pics on here, don't be surprised if its more venting depresso shit. Sorry for the inconvenience everyone that is still watching me and reading this T.T